Love
5. I've another junior who will talk with me about Christ! =) And I leave you with parting enthusiasm! ~~~~
Yesterday a good friend remarked that I have not enough love. It is true, I have so much still to learn. I still do not wish to defend myself in this gentle rebuke, although it did hurt a little. No one knows what I've utterly given in order that I should learn it through practice, living by the one on whom this love should be poured out. I have lived on the grace of His strength alone. Oh but I shall have none of self-pity. No, if I am tested so, then there is still so much more beyond the limits of my strength that I've not tasted. I've tasted some, but there is more. He knows what I can bear. "The underlying foundation of Jesus Christ's kingdom is poverty, not possessions; not making decisions for Jesus, but having such a sense of absolute futility that we finally admit, "Lord, I cannot even begin to do it."-- My Utmost for His Highest, July 21
In this way then, my friend is right--There is still more to learn, more to give, more that must die that He might live. Rejoice then, my soul, for it is but another tree's winter... come spring you shall have leaves and a new ring. =) A promise. Fruit.
I woke this morning with a profound sense of loss. But though the soul mourned one's new disposition, this was quickly turned to joy upon remembering prayer from the night before, for a heavy burden had been lifted from me, and I was free again, to live and love unabashedly, without holding back, without feeling guilty. Oh I don't know what the world thinks. I might be misunderstood, doubted even, but He knows, and He shall speak for me. I shall not utter a word in my defence, let my focus be to love all in peace.
What a long day it has been!
That was my favourite part. =) I watched as Gemini rose into the air, as if upon a great invisible stairway, Castor and Pollux shining brightly, as though to spur each other on in their fervance to glow like diamonds. There were two planets. I've never seen brighter ones from earth. After free chips and dinner at the Riverboat, the moon rose later, hanging low over the bridge leading into Sentosa. Picture perfect. The air was cool.
Have I lacked love?
"No, not at all."
He understood.
some distance has done us good, he says. he's actually enjoyed the way things have been in recent weeks, wants to keep growing that way, slow and steady. both of us have peace.
We talked.
We held hands, bowed our heads and prayed.~~~~
Alph, I hope the discussion/study/(debate) tonight has piqued you somewhat... =) Do continue to allow your faith to be challenged, that you will truly know the authenticity of the authority it stands on, the difference between faith that stands on the authority of the word, and faith that lacks the backing of any authority otherwise. Always come back to Jesus, all else wanes when we look elsewhere. =) The passion for Christ grows as we know Him, and if we should seek on, this passion for Him and life, you will no longer hunger for, but own. I thank God He was there as I spoke with you, I look forward to more. =)Besides His love, the statement of the cross is this:
man is ultimately unable to save himself.
i.e. Man is unable to come before God himself. unable to intervene for himself. Christ, through his ministry here, His death on the cross, who now sits with the Father, is the only one who ever intervened, and who ever had the right to do so.
To say Jesus Christ's death on the cross isn't enough to bring us directly to God belittles what He has paid. it denies the power in his blood. it denies all God ever sent Him to do.
Remind me to get back to you on Mary and the saints... but I do think she's sleeping, as are the saints. The bible says the dead will be raised imperishable when He returns... I doubt this precludes anyone. Again, this is not the point. Only He alone was ever worthy of intervention and intercession, and those sleeping do not pray.
I say this in earnest, in urgency, but most of all, in love. =)
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