God's Faithfulness
God's faithfulness:
Dear all,
I have not blogged for a little while, but I want to keep myself accountable and give thanks anyway. There's much to be encouraged about. =)
Today I was overwhelmed. Just on msn, at the same time, between a self-mutilating bro, the death of my uncle (yesterday), tutorial group mates who were looking for me to discuss readings I haven't read, the quiet grief of my dad, being stuck in the latest brawl between grp mates in another proj grp, 6 deadlines, helping a brother who's raising support for campus ministry, 9 readings, helping jarett with admin, talking to a friend who was mad at some girl, outreach to a friend's sister, and trying to keep track of the sheer number of people who need prayer, I still manage to keep up with things, but life is coming at me so fast I barely manage to handle one thing before another hits me. I feel like I'm sitting in a pool of paper and people. Everybody wants a piece of me and there's not enough to go around, but I'm learning to be quiet and still in it all, and keep my eyes fixed on Him still. I used to pray "As bread that's broken, use my life..."... haha watch what you pray! ask to be used for Him and He will give you what you ask! but like He multiplied the 5 loaves God has multiplied my time and energies. God has been merciful and gracious.
And so I give thanks.
With daryl:
I really didn't know what to do, except pray. I believe God can work. Tonight after his raving, and my useless words, all I could do was pray. God brought to his mind song. Lifted his spirits when I couldn't. I give thanks. I know it's not over but it's in His hands.
With lady at the mrt:
I met a lady today asking me for 50 cents so she could go buy a meal. Mei and I walked on after giving her the money but His spirit was working His compassion. I couldn't leave her without Christ, so I took e few steps back to find her. Thank God for boldness to approach her, wisdom (cos when I approached her it was really by faith, I didn't know what I was going to say until I opened my mouth.) She has no job, health problems, is about 60. Has a flat, won't talk about family, won't talk about where she stays. Just needs money for food. to cut a long story short God allowed me to extract from her her needs, directed me to attempt establishing long term contact, and to minister over that. Despite her resistance to aid, I thank God she's willing to consider accepting one free meal a week and we have the resources to help her meet it via NUS. On and off, woven through the conversation, we spoke a little on Jesus, she is not clear of the gospel, and she is in need of healing, both physical n emotional. I simply rested in the wisdom of His timing for all things. I know He'll pave the way for ministry. When it seemed like I had to leave her without her firm conclusion on anything I felt led to ask if we might help in any small way. God provided an avenue for further contact. She needs clothes. She's my size. I can give mine to her. When I meet her I shall take her out to a meal, sit down and talk a bit more with her. She just needs to know she's loved, to have a friend. I shall trust God for the rest.
With proj mates:
there was a huge argument between two project group mates. My friend is terrified of this guy whom she claims is stalking her of sorts. The guy is the vulgar swearing type, intellectually gd at arguing, outspoken and so sometimes unpleasant when he throws his temper. Because of this my friend is completely intimidated and afraid for her safety, has changed my tutorial group to have me and her in the same class for company, now she wants to move out of the group, and move out of class. She wouldn't talk to him and he wouldn't talk to her (doesn’t matter who’s more reasonable now, it's become a side issue), and I was stuck in between and a little exasperated, because she was stubborn about counsel, and she felt God was nominally interested in her life. I trusted He would make a way to help her understand. He did. This friend said she heard God speak to her! Praise God!!! Though it wasn't on this issue, she's willing to consider staying on because He spoke. Thanks to my other proj grp mate who I got to pray over the whole situation. It's just been 4 days of prayer. I'm glad to have them. Just got to know them. Hope to share Christ with tut grp, and be a witness.
With the 12th:
God's building leaders for Himself! And they will be used despite their humility and uncertainty... God certainly loves hearts like these! He doesn't ask for much, just whatever they can give of themselves. And He will guide ever so faithfully, lovingly and gently. The journey with God begins! =) I give thanks and am joyful. Haha.. I've been praying for this to happen!! Yes, the 12th must come to be a praying company.
Thanks Jarett for praying, Mei for making calls while I was sharing with the lady from mrt, Johnson for the concern, Allan and Collin for telling me what you've sensed in prayer. It means lots to me. =) Be encouraged. You're spot on. Let's pray hard and commit all things to Him.
I thank God, I really do, for your friendship and love. I'm excited. I can't wait to watch God work. Let's press on and wait at His feet =)
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