Thanksgiving
God I don't know how You did this, but I thank you because I have not deserved this. For the past week I've been needing a place to be alone. My aunt's house is a place of ministry-- My grandma needs prayer, and my aunt needs to hear a God who can give her unconditional hope. But to live there means I have little quiet, and my prayer life is affected. I spend very little time at her place or at home, because of life which necessitates my being out. I feel the need to spend time with her and so I willingly oblige to talk to her whenever I'm in. But this means I cannot pray, and I cannot concentrate when I am reading for school, for she has free license to enter the room at will (she enters to use her toilet and will chat on the way). I cannot pray with ease in the house, for i fear to let her see me agonize over myself or my family in prayer. I do not want her offence, worse, if she misunderstands that one is doing so in a bid to be holy. I am perhaps thinking of the verse that when one prays one should go to a quiet place where no man sees. But also, I am most at ease alone with Christ. So this is good. Father I thank you. You ARE faithful, and know my needs, even before I ask.
I got a place in hall today.
And this is truly by His grace alone.
It is a miracle, because:
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