Who Am I
Dear friends,
I write in a time of great difficulty and immense discouragement. I cannot share details since it will displease some, but suffice to say that the question of keeping on with ministry now hangs in the balance. I struggle with perceived irrelevance, and perhaps I will never fit in. It is after all a boys' ministry. The fruit I have sown, borne and grown will perhaps be visible ever only to His eyes. This morning God gave me Habakkuk for QT, pretty much in line with the theme of things these days as I pray--i.e. people I deeply love, whose "own strength is their god" (1:11), with no promise they'll get better. But in all things, I simply ask for greater humility, and greater faith that my God alone knows best. I ask for an unyielding faith that a heart that remains pure and humble is the heart He can best use. My consolation is that I have obeyed every prompting He's given. And in spite of the hefty price one pays to remain forever as one foolish in the eyes of the world, I will not take upon myself the burden of proving the world wrong. Fruit has never been my job to grow, it is God's own, as I submit, obey and avail myself to His use as I minister. I will not make it my job now, for only like this can He still have room to do a far better job than me. My God will not fail me. And life, is ultimately about being His.
Who am I
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt?
Who am I, that the bright and morning star
Would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart?
Who am I,
that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again?
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me?
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are.
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You told me who I am
I am Yours
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10/23/2006 08:59:00 am |
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